Monday, April 24
24 APRIL 2006
after 20 days i am back, to the place where i can said anything i want that even my closest friends i also cannot said out from my own mouth. yupp. i really missing him like crazy i never miss someone like this before, i think he is the first guy i was so crazy over him. i didn't send the letter, i miss his letter writing which that i can read but didn't week by week past. i know that if i tell him now he won't accept because around him there more pretty and better looking girls around him, and maybe he won't even choose me but i know if i not going london he will change lots and we getting very far apart. sometimes i feel of flying over malaysia to find him, but if he saw me what will he think. will he feel happy or weird ??? every night upon the stars shine down that him looking at that stars too just like how much i miss him everyday, every plane fly pass just like a message to him that i miss him lots to reach to him from far. i really hope we got more time to spent with each other and be with each other. hope he will really be back on my birthday this year, hope he remember his promise to me. i will wait for long when we are ready for each other, but i don't if his mum allow us to be together. London maybe is where he will see each other everyday, but he might have his own friends after he start school. In singapore he tell me if i am going he will spent his time accompany me and working part-time with me too. What if his parents don allow, i really don't know how should i go or not??? can any passer-by tell me because i don really know is it my right choice to go London to study. I REALLY MISS HIM MILLION AND THOUSAND LOTS.
LOVES
KAREN
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