SYNNKAREN.

A New Start & Refreshing Life.. (=

2009-11-20T09:13:00.010+08:00

I'm Happy with my Life. (= With a loving guy. We been together For 2Years 6Months 20Days. Baby Chan i love you.. Sorry been busy, sorry for didn't update.. Here some of the nice pictures we took not long ago. ♥ ♥

Last Year Japan Trip. 22Dec - 28 Dec 2008.

At Fullerton Hotel on 16 Oct 2009.

At Marina @ Keppel Bay, After dinner at Prive. On 10 Oct 2009

At CafeBiz in Traders Hotel on 14 Nov 2009.

At Swissotel Merchant Court on 16 Nov 2009 (Baby Chan Birthday.)

All The Beautiful Memories.. (= We Going Japan Again This Year 13 Dec - 20 Dec 2009.
So Check out for our latest Photos Coming Up. (=

2008-10-08T22:08:00.001+08:00

08 OCTOBER 2008

I feel very unhappy & up sad now, feel like crying... Just now got quarrel with him.. i just feel like giving up already, why can't he give in to me sometimes??? i really love him alot... Am i really so ugly, fat & stupid???????? Sometimes i feel sick & tired of how i living now, how i wish i not born out in this world... I'm afraid to be alone, getting hurt & into darkness again... he just call, i don't want him to hear me crying after what he say in the phone.. i ask him to call me later.. I don't get it, Isn't loving someone not because of its looks, figure or even education, Is the feeling & the happiness the person can give you.. Why can't we love my imperfection, why can't he love me of who i am & not what he wanted? I really love him, not because of what he have i love him is because of who he is & i love all his imperfection...

loves,
Karen.L

2008-10-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

1st October 2008

HAPPY SEVENTEEN MONTHS ANNIVERSARY MY BELOVED DARDAR CHAN!!!
Today i didn't go out with Him, As he meeting his friends but its okies at least we went out yesterday...

Loves,
Karen

2008-09-23T10:24:00.002+08:00

GOOD MORNING A NEW DAY AGAIN!

Yesterday was 22 Sept, 3 more years to a really special & important day... Just loving him more & more...

2008-09-02T12:06:00.006+08:00

02 SEPTEMBER 2008

20 more days to a Special Day, 22 Sept 2011 or 22 Sept 2012 will be a big change in my life.. I really wish i would walk in the Church of Rome with Dardar Synn, Honeymoon at Japan, London & over Europe... I really love him, i really would like to hold him till old.. He might change but i notice his caring for me never change... I know he don't know how to show out his love for me, That why i'm giving him chances to notice...

You like my new blogskin?? Clarissa made a change for me... hahahax.. i love this blogskin. Last time is AN, Steffi or Karylan helping me to change my blogskin.. i loves all of ya... Have a blessed week...

Loves,
Karen's bloggie..

2008-09-01T12:37:00.004+08:00

DARDAR HAPPY 16 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY!
.I LOVE YOU.

2008-08-28T10:18:00.002+08:00

28 August 2008

Yesterday dad left my old phone with new battery... After i on my old phone i sit there sending the picture into my new phone, till almost low battery... Dardar came over for breakfast with me, after that we when The Cathy to watch Wall-E... You know what i saw Clarissa when the movie ends while she walking out, At first i didn't know is her so i give a call... But we didn't meet up in the end, So him & i went for dinner... After dinner i follow him around, there when i have my mood swing... I accompany him take train back to Yio Chu Kang, i drop off the cab & take bus home... In the bus i look at the old phone msg those msg he send me, that time he use to call me baobei deardear or even dear... Will he keep his promise? But he have alr break some promises he made & said himself... Why is relationship so sweet at the start & tears in the end? Will we get married in the end?? Only God know & he planned everything, so i lift up all this to Him.. But i don't get it why, sometimes he give & he take away. Is it i done somethings wrong that why he took away, Where's the Joy? Please don't take anyone away from my life again, i don't mind just being silly loving him just don't take him away i just don't want to be heartbreaking again. I just want to hold him, supporting him, loving him, see him from far if he doing good, caring him, concerning him & be there when he needed me, i don't need all his love just let me love him will do...

loves,
Karen

2008-08-26T13:22:00.005+08:00

26 AUG 2008

Thanks for all the concern... i fine now... Don't worry. Just now i watch 'Wonderful Life' a Korean show its last episode.... In the end the little girl didn't die, it was a happy ending.. That why i love nowadays Korean Show, But in the front & few days back i cried alot... hahahax. I think all the cried is all worth it for a happy ending... I am thinking if i was suddenly pregnant one day i don't really know what to do, But i'm sure i will gave birth the baby because i don't want to kill a small life... its also a gift from Daddy God.. Plus i loves Baby lots i think i can be the best mummy. My dream age of getting married is 21, Now i'm 18 so three more years to go.... Age of 22 gave birth to my first child... I know some of you think its so young to married & gave birth... i don't want to have a far apart age gap with my child & i wanted Two or Three child, Just like my mummy if got three kids hahahax... People who know me well will know that i play with kids alot & i know how to take care of them... People always ask me why am i always thinking so far, It because everyone must have a dream so they will push them self towards their dream.. I got so many dream that not fulfill yet, that why i running so fast... i don't want to walk slowly i'm afraid till i'm old i still got dreams not fulfill yet.. Some people think that after you get married you cannot do things that you want, Its all wrong... Is see how you handle everything & not tie to your marriage...

Dardar, i'm really so thankful that God put you into my life. Someone i could love, care, concern & hold.. We been together for 482 Days, it seem so many days but i seem so far from you.. i will keep putting love into your heart, i don't know what i will get in return... But i know Daddy God have a Big gift for us...

Daddy God, Thanks for Joy in my life, because happy itself could not fill me up only Joy make me Joyful each day... Being Joyful i will be cheerful too.. Thanks for the sun that shine deep into my heart, Those darkness room in my heart have all brighten up...

Lots of Loves,
Karen Lim

2008-08-08T10:26:00.005+08:00

080808

Today i notice something, what he done wrong i have forgive him.. But getting hurt myself, on 6 Aug i went to his house i check on his computer things i shouldn't see, today i while i playing the game he ask me to play i found out one more thing that i shouldn't have know. i don't know should i forgive him this time again. I don't know how much things he been keeping behind me, i don't know can i trust in him again... What have done wrong, Why i keep getting hurt again & again? Do i really deserve all this? Who can tell me? Am i really stupid, Ugly, Fat & Useless? I try all my ways to be a good girlfriend, What i get is all this???

2008-07-11T12:44:00.002+08:00

11 JULY 2008

Yesterday i went out with Dardar Chan, We have lots of fun too.. (= i Brought a new shoes from Nike, Just love it so much. Dardar Chan Brought me Donuts, Sweets & A very big t-shirt from Hong Kong, you know why i said the t-shirt is big??? It is because my Dearest Dar brought me a guy 's' size top... hahahax. We also watched Hellboy2- the golden army, before that we buy the ticket then walk to Wisma for dinner... Yesterday i ask him a few question, but i not really happy with some of his answer.. I let time take our love through, if we mean to be together we will be together... Am i right??

i will upload the photos tonight...

With Loves,
Karen

2008-07-09T22:00:00.003+08:00

09 JULY 2008

Today is my Chinese Birthday this what Mummy told me, He will also reach Singapore in 1 hr & 53 mins time... How i wish i was at the airport waiting to fetching him, but i know he don't want me to go fetch him so i didn't go.. Today i made strawberry muffin for him, hope tomorrow he can come over... I thinking if he will give me a call once he reach home?? I have not seen him since last Friday, Also not sure he meeting me tomorrow?? My missing of him just so uncountable.

Today i keep looking at the ring he give me, i'm thinking if this ring will always on my finger... Can someone tell me am i loving him to deeply??? Just feel that i'm a bit silly loving him so deep, Loving him more than myself..

Today i walk to Rivervale Mall Ntuc to buy things, walk pass secondary school i miss those days have recess with my best friends siting around me & during PE i love the lesson most, can run with AN & Nic.W i use to be fast runner like them but after secondary school i stop all sports. That why i go out of shape, miss my past figure sporty kind. I just misses every part of my life in secondary school.....

Loves,
Karen.

2008-07-08T20:58:00.002+08:00

08 07 2008

Today was a life without him again.. He will only be back tomorrow at 11.50pm, i not sure will he call me when he reach home.. I just miss him so much, but hope he enjoy will do.. Today i went school too early, so i go to golden dragon to walk around then i decide to make something for Dardar. I will go learn the basic first then do the thing for Dardar, Hope this year i really can go Japan with him to give him use it... 20 more days to my 18 birthday. This year i want to slim down to 42kg, learn finish dressmaking, japanese lesson & knitting.. I wish that Dardar & i love will last through eternal & wish that Dardar will celebrate my birthday every single year. Dardar Chan i really miss you, hope you will treat me better after you come back....

I'm afraid to be alone, when i'm alone i will start thinking of alot of things, i won't know what to do when Dardar leave me i just felt so blank inside me.. Will he change to another person or even change his heart when he start school.. i really don't know what will happen to me, just Hope all this won't happen.. I was so broken in the past & in darkness world i don't want to return to the past of me.. Dardar to me you are my whole world my everything, someone i wish to see once i open my eyes every morning & someone that i love the most since i give you my love. Can someone tell me what should i do???

loves,
karen.

2008-07-07T21:39:00.002+08:00

07 July 2008

This my Second post for today, As i have nothing much to do... I missing him as well, just miss his voice & just looking at our photo start missing him. i think he just my everything to me, without him i just felt no strength & just don't know what to do. How i wish he is talking to me on phone now or even stand beside me, 2 more days for him to return... i really miss him alot. i'm going to sleep early today, if not i will start thinking of him again. There two more song below, Enjoy it.

Eternal love,
Dear karen

2008-07-07T09:39:00.008+08:00

07 JULY 2008

Today is a windy day, i was listening to two song one after another (be with you by BOA & Time after time by Cyndi Lauper) this two songs is from the movie '10 Promise to my Dog' which i watch two time.... First time is with AN Second time is with Michelle (Sarah sis), Wanted to watch the second time with my dardar but he went oversea... 21 days more to my special day, hope this year will be dardar celebrating with me again will also be the 2nd year celebrating for me.. He is the First Boyfriend that celebrate my birthday for me, thinking what surprise he giving me this year?? A puppy??? hahahax. i always wanted a puppy since young till now..

Now our relationship being better, stronger than in the past. i learn to speak up, handle & solve the problems between us, i want to hold his hand till old & be there when he needs me.. i don't mind how he treat me, At least i know he bring light into my life... wherever he goes i will follow no matter how far, i will do well to make this relationship go well & no matter how tired i am i will hold this relation tight.. This is a Promise to our Relationship. Yesterday he went to Hong Kong till Wed, How i wish i can go along with him.. Should i go Japan with him in Dec??? Hope mummy will allow me to go with him.. Friday me & Him have a very long chat on messaging each other, i now felt he need more of my concern & i don't bear to leave him... No matter how long he take to accept me to take me into his heart i will wait, a true love needs time to build up just like how people can be together till old... i Promise no surgery at any part of my top till toe of my body, i will be myself. last time i thought he want me to go for surgery, but now i know he like how i am than a different person after surgery... i will love him with eternal love.

To my best friend (you know who you are) sorry for not understand you, sorry for all my attitude... But sometimes i just don't know how to get over it, i need time to learn & control my temper.. For friends after so long, i don't wish to lose any friends.. i willing to listen carefully what you are saying, How about you? i felt lonely sometimes, as you know i don't have much close or best friends around that i can share with & who really understand me well... Hope to see you all soon, sorry for everything i done wrong, the attitude & face that i show you.. i don't mean to do it.

With eternal loves,
Karen

2008-06-17T21:28:00.011+08:00

17 JUNE 2008

Yesterday went to Haw Par Villa, that why never upload pics... Yesterday i went with Clarissa, Hwee Peng, Sarah, Wendi & Jeslin, We also went to IMM after going to Haw Par Villa. I brought alot of things from Daiso... Then we take bus back to Vivo, last night i also went Wendi house with Clarissa, Hwee Peng & Jeslin, For Sarah she went to Hougang mall to meet her sister for dinner... i have alot of Fun yesterday. There the father's day card pics & some pics we taken yesterday...

Today i went out with AN to buy things, but mango is close for mid sales tomorrow, Then we didn't buy anything for Steffi today, but i brought quite alot of things... hahahax i think we will meet on Thursday or Friday again, i hope we will buy the things we needed.

The Cards that i made for Daddy and Dardar Daddy, For my Brother one i forgotten to take a pic...

the pics taken yesterday!

Loves,
Karen

2008-06-15T22:35:00.002+08:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

Happy Father's Day to All Daddy.... I went out with dardar Synn today, we meet at orchard mrt... We walk around town, because our movie start at 5.10pm at Cineleisure.. We watch "The Incredible Hulk" is very nice, is like the whole story first is 'iron man' now 'the Hulk'.. What next can't wait till the complete movie is out.... After the movie we walk to Meritus Mandarin Hotel to meet dardar parent & cousin too, We have our dinner at Chatterbox inside the hotel is like we sitting at the 39th Floor... Guess what we eat there??? Chicken Rice! hahahax.. But this is a famous Chicken rice that cost $23++ for per person... But is nice after all... Then we walk to Heeren as we all are very full, only dardar him want to go home quickly... hahahax.. This year i made 3 cards, one for daddy, my brother & dardar daddy.. i will upload the photo tomorrow as i'm quite tired, As i didn't have enough sleep as i sleep at 4 going 5am last night...
I have enjoy my day out with dardar & family...

Loves,
Karen

2008-06-12T11:08:00.004+08:00

When will our bells rings in church of Rome? When will we both step on the way of red carpet & never ends?

This song below really means alot in love, "When you smile My life becomes a ray of light Sing me a lullaby To sleep at midnight I'll be hypotizes When looked into your eyes turn off the room light Let's spend the night Take me to far away Away to your secret place Take my tears my fears Take all my pain For which I'll repay someday With a kiss and say Can't believe that I'm in love In love again When the stars don't shine And when the birds don't fly And when the flowers cry And when the rain runs dry When the violet's red And when the rose turn blue Baby i'm still in love with you". Since the first time you came into my life, i swear i love you with my whole heart & loving you even till now... No matter how you treat me i take it, because this is how i love you.. I always wanted to live together with you, just our time together for the whole 24 hours. Do you remember the wedding that you tell me you wanted??? Having our wedding in Rome a small white church & white dove flying around after the wedding ceremony, For Singapore is a wedding a sentosa beach with colorful streamers around & having fireworks at night... All this are so wonderful & wish this will all come true....

Loves,
Karen Deardear

2008-06-10T10:53:00.005+08:00

Today is Our 1 year 1 month 10 days together.... <3

Yesterday after i end school yesterday like 6 pm i went down to Boon Keng to pass something to a friend, We went to St. Micheal Church till like 9 plus we leave there... Then we walk we decided to stop walking & sit at the side of the tennis court watching people playing tennis, after they play finish we sit there chating till 10 plus... After that my friend walk me to the inside of MRT station. i have a great day yesterday, Being in God place is always the best..

Later after school i'm meeting my Dear dardar for waffles, Yeah hahahax. Hope i will have a fine day ahead in school or even with my boy... i love him the most & i don't want to end this story how i wish this won't stop, he might not show or say out that he cares or concern about me, but in my heart there no one can ever replace him in my heart. the little things he do sometimes make me happy, sad or even angry, But those are all beautiful memories together with him. In the end he bring light into my life, i wish there one day he will bring me to beach & walk on the sand while the sun is rising up.....

Tomorrow going out with my Two best friends cum Sisters, Not sure where we going should be town or bugis... Tomorrow i must remember to take photo with them, Must be alot.... hahahax.. i think i will have lots of things to say tomorrow de... So look out for more of my Posting.....

Loves,
Dear Karen

2008-06-04T22:01:00.003+08:00

Today stay at home the whole day.... i have think alot today, thinking why am i not as clever as you?? What's really my talent? Can i know why i just can't being myself? i don't like to be like others because i have my own lifestyle, every person is different... Why you just don't think about it... i can tell you i am stupid, ugly & fat... Then what can i change when i'm stupid & ugly? you think i'm fat i willing to slim down, you just not willing to help me through it... Why always me having relationship problems?? Since you don't even want to married me, then why keep hold on to this relationship when i'm not the girl you want.... I think i made the wrong choice of being with you, i thought i have found a right guy who love, care, concern & understand me.... Maybe this relationship just wrong... Maybe i'm the one thinking to perfect & we will live happily after, those fairytale just a lie... Last time i thought we can hold hand & walk on beach even till old maybe this just a dream & won't even come true....

Love,
K

2008-05-30T22:05:00.012+08:00

Why you just can't treat me how you talking on phone... Do you know i wish you will treasure me, because there no return back to the past. I watch the show 'Rhythm Of Life(变奏曲)' today is the Last episode, He Return back Twice to the Past & he make the right choice in the end but he suffer himself sitting in wheelchair But he know he make the rest of them happy, He also got back Xiao Ruo who he loves So it's a happy ending... How i wish i not wearing the ring that you give me, Maybe you treat me better than now, i feel like returning you the ring & when you think i'm really the right person then you give it to me.. Can anyone tell me?? i willing to spent my whole life with you, how about you? Did you even think of spending your whole life with me?? i just don't know why you like to compare me with others, Did i even compare you with others guys? Because i respect you & maybe i just easily get bully by people, like AN & Steffi say i have a soft heart. I only give you the best like how i treat you, I never said things that hurt you... I don't know if you really know how to treasure or you just don't want to treasure me??? Now i just want to Treasure all our moments & not to regret next time, You have really give me sweet times that really touch me... Sometimes i really silly, keep thinking that you will still be the Synn that i just met & we being a lovely couple in the Past, You holding my hand & make me a happy day that without any quarrel & don't mind of my looks as well as figure.... Down there got the song of the
OST from 'Rhythm Of Life(变奏曲)'.

Loves,
K
30 MAY 2008

2008-05-27T10:52:00.005+08:00

Who is there for me?? Why you just like to take for granted?? If you find someone better & you love more just go for it i won't stop you, why am i so holding you so tight when i know i going to get hurt in the end? Why can't you love me more than i love you? Why am i always hiding my unhappiness inside me, i just so tired of it... I just love you so deeply which i don't know how can i get out of this, you didn't even put yourself in my shoes & think for me, you just like the way when i need to put myself in your shoes which didn't even care of my feelings. Yesterday i shout at you 2 times, you didn't even say sorry to make me shout.. Why can't you treat me in a better way than like this..... I'm really up sad with you, why you just don't learn from you mistake & keep making the same old mistake.. Do you know is so unfair to me sometimes, need to thicken my face to say things when it is not even my fault & mistake. Even i tell you my feels in the letter, you don't even bother to ask me or reply my answer.

K

2008-05-18T22:53:00.005+08:00

18 MAY 2008
SUNDAY

Today i went outting with my Dardar Synn @ Orchard (Cineleisure, Far East Plaza, Takashimaya, Wisma, Wheelock, Shaw) , We also watch a movie name 'Accuracy Of Death' was a Japanese Movie.. You Die die Must watch is very nice, There the song below i'm in love with the song If anyone have it please send to me... We didn't eat dinner today as we eat snacks during the movie. Today i also pass Dardar 2 letters that i write yesterday & the day before Yesterday, Hope he will understand it.... Ending here, Nites, Check out for my next posting...

Loves,
K

2008-05-15T22:11:00.002+08:00

THURSDAY
15 May 2008

Been busy this few days that i didn't update my blog, been tired too... yesterday went eat dinner with Dardar @ amk, We wanted to eat at chompchomp in the first place then he change his mind... Then we both went home quite early like 8 plus we leave amk hub & take cab home... How i wish we both got more time to spent to be together, But this never come true... Tomorrow meeting AN, hope Steffi can come along with us...

Loves,
K

2008-05-03T11:38:00.015+08:00

SLEEPY DAY!
03May2008

Yesterday went out with An & Steffi to Bugis... We all bought nice new clothing, but i spent 50 bucks the money that Dardar give to save up to buy my Sewing-machine ... So now must save back the 50 bucks... Mmm yesterday during dinner time we went Macs, but i didn't eat just drink ice-Milo as i'm not really feeling well... Before that we went to the arcade to see my beloved Mr. Blackie, As my dardar wear black top yesterday... After dinner we go to take bus 80 back to seng kang, then go to Rivervale plaza Macs again.. Sit down & chat till like 10 plus then we leave, An & me take bus 88 home for Steffi after send us to the bus-stop she walk home alone... How i wish Steffi, AN & me can stay close to each other so that we can hang out more often... Yesterday not sure is AN or Steffi say, An & me can share to buy a house to put clothes because yesterday An & me look at the same design of clothes that we both think its nice... hahax. Since secondary school An & me have almost the same ideal, Then we almost know what each other thinking... hahahax. so cool right? How i wish can go out more often with them... Yups there some pictures down here during our outting & two tops i bought... Enjoy your Weekends...

Loves, K

An & Steffi (while we at Macs)

That's Me. With my latest Necklace Dardar give me.

Three of us (on Bus 80)

The 3 Feet...

Three of Us again!

My New 2 Tops

2008-05-01T21:59:00.009+08:00

Happy 1st Year Anniversary!!!

01 MAY 2008

Just so happy today, Today have lunch at Nanbantel Japanese Restaurant & dinner at Big O... Today we also watch movie "Iron-Man" so nice... Dardar bought me this necklace below, Is heart shape with shining things... hahahax. We didn't take Neos today, But nevermind at least i got a kiss from Dardar... Got to go sleep alr, As tmr need to wake up very early...

Loves, K

2008-04-30T23:20:00.006+08:00

Soon To Be Our One Year Anniversary!!!
April 2008

Yeah, around 40mins to 1st May so happy... Just now went out shopping with my family, then i bought new face products there pictures below...

Seeing my Dardar soon, Going to sleep soon... So ending here..

Loves, K

2008-04-29T23:32:00.003+08:00

The two pictures Below is what i bought just now...

Loves this Bag...

Love This pair of shoes...

The shoes might be the same as Steffi, But i adding some nice things on it... Mmm, today i meet Dardar @ Cityhall Mrt... I end around 5.06pm so i rush to bugis to buy the bag & shoes, den walk fast to Cityhall to meet Dardar... But he reach there earlier den me by one min. i got to go do my stuff already, Byebye...

Loves, K

2008-04-29T09:50:00.002+08:00

TWO DAYS TO OUR ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!
29 APRIL 2008

Later after my dress-making class i going to meet Dardar... but before i meet him i'm going to get my new bag & shoes for 1st May... Can't wait till 1st May, i know he got me a necklace but i don't know how it look.. Plus yesterday he called me & tell me that 1st May Club21 having 20%off he want to go take a look... Hope we can take Neos on Thursday if got take i will post in here okies.. Plus i will take lots of picture on Thursday.. He treat me really well sometimes he might make fun of me, but we laugh Together & have happy day out.. Sometimes he might make me angry but in the end he make me smile & laugh..

Only God's Know if This Relationship will Last Forever, But i will do my part as his Girl... I will love him as long as i could...

Loves, K

2008-04-21T10:53:00.011+08:00

21 APRIL 2008

TEN DAYS MORE TO OUR ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!!

Dardar I love you more & more as each day Passes....

Yesterday Dardar, Dardar families & Me, Went to sit the Singapore Flyer. It was a fun ride up & down for 20mins, before that we went for dinner together at restaurant below of the Singapore Flyer.

Dardar & me taken on e Singapore Flyer. (=

The View on the Singapore Flyer.

Dardar e two cute Niece (jiejie- Hui Ying & meimei- Hui En)

Ticket of Singapore Flyer.

Loves, Karen

2008-03-29T23:50:00.003+08:00

29 MARCH 2008
Karen.L

I LOVE SYNN CHAN

2008-03-26T22:02:00.006+08:00

HELLOS MY LOVES.

Today went watch Sky of Love with AN, Which was a very nice show but sad ending. How i wish that guy didn't die, but just so nice wish to watch again. Hiro & Mika was such a wonderful couple, who should be together for life.. REMEMBER TO WATCH IT!

Loves Karen
26 MARCH 2008

2008-03-13T15:36:00.005+08:00

I LOVE YOU SYNN CHAN. 130308

2008-03-12T20:55:00.004+08:00

I HAVE FALL SICK BUT I STILL MISSING YOU!
-12 MARCH 2008-

Dardar, been three days since i last see you. I have fall sick on Monday & don't want to let you know about it, that make you worry. As i know you are quite busy this few days. i will be good girl eat my medicine & get well soon, so that you won't worry about me. I'm missing you every second of my life & every breath i take in & out, i look at our picture & neos, Just wish you stand in front of me right now & be in your warm arms.

Loves, Deardear

2008-02-20T22:50:00.002+08:00

UNLUCKY DAY!
20.02.2008

Today i miss my bus 80 by a few steps & also took 80A the wrong bus.. I feel so down today, but when i'm in class at least i felt better when my lecturer joke with me. This Afternoon AN came over to my house to help me do my phone stuff, after that we slack around & chitchat about our boyfriend & some secondary school stuff...

He Promise to check out his Friendster today, but he didn't even take a look i think & even if he take a look already he not even thankful for what i added in his friendster. Today he just send one msg & say 'Don't call or msg me, i won't reply.' Just think why sometimes he treat me so good & sometimes like i not even here on earth. Is girl just a kite to guys?? when he like it he will pull the string to make you higher, when he don't like it just let go of the string & don't even care where you.

Loves,
Karen.L

2008-02-18T22:39:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU LIKE NEVER EVER BEFORE!
I'm so Thankful that I met you..
(18.02.08)

Yesterday we went to watch 'L change the world', At the ending part my tears keep flowing down my face... As L die peacefully, my Heart was quite hurt & sad inside.. He might look EMO but inside him was so Cute, Clever & Caring, With this three Cs is enough for a perfect Guy..

Dardar, i just love you so much.. Sometimes you just a bit not romantic guy but its okay, you are my loving boyfriend to me.. Someone that will love me with a true heart...

Loves,
Deardear

2008-01-17T15:04:00.000+08:00

男人女人 (许茹芸阿穆隆)

词/曲：吴克群 (Feat with “快乐男声”阿穆隆)

许：爱爱爱爱了几回　也明白其中滋味
　　付出的从来不会等于收回
　　我却还在等待着　谁能出现

穆：伤伤伤伤了几回　也曾经为爱憔悴
　　爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
　　我却还是学不会　狠心对谁

许：男人男人　多希望你是好人
　　多希望用你的真　让我不必再心疼

穆：女人女人　我答应做个好人
　　我答应用我一生　来换你的快乐一生

许：爱爱爱爱了几回　也明白其中滋味
　　付出的从来不会等于收回
　　我却还在等待着　谁能出现

穆：伤伤伤伤了几回　也曾经为爱憔悴
　　爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈

合：我却还是学不会　狠心对谁

许：男人男人　多希望你是好人
　　多希望用你的真　让我不必再心疼

穆：女人女人　我答应做个好人

合：不会再让我(你)心疼　一等再等
　　你就是我等的那个人

穆：男人男人

许：女人女人

合：多么希望你是对的人

2008-01-09T22:03:00.000+08:00

Thanks to those who cares about me.
I'm really grateful to you!
09.01.08

I misses those days in the house of God, i'm afraid to walk back in i lost all my faith & courage to face him that i have in the past. I didn't do my job to be a faithful child to God, i not able to call those i brought to church once.. Even him i don't know how to bring him back to church, I'm afraid that God take him away from my life again.. I'm afraid to get hurt again, Thank him for those hurts he cover in the past.
In my heart he always my dearest heavenly dad which i love eternally.. I always wanted the guy i love who celebrate my birthday, Christmas & special Occasion with me! which i long for years to God that the guy who celebrate will be the right for my this life, on 1 may 2007 i found him... The 1st guy who celebrate my 17 birthday, On Christmas 2007, New Year to 2008... A guy who i have lots of wonderful memories that i never know this really call Love...

Thanks AL, can bring me back to God? i run away from church is because my cell leader keep calling to bring yong de back to church when he don't even want to go back.. She say is my responsible to bring him back, i try lots of ways to back him back... That why i run away from church & from God...

2008-01-08T18:35:00.000+08:00

Somethings to add on: You have change to someone that i don't know who you really are anymore, i don't put too much hope on you walking this Road with me till old. If next time we didn't got married to each other its okay, At least this our fate to know each other this life! Thank you for giving me those memories that i can keep for my life time, You are my last Boyfriend that i have in my life time this a promise that i tell you before we both get together... Your looks, your smiles, your laughter, your eyes, your nose, your lips, your Hair & every Single things about you i will remember this whole life... I didn't really mind about your imperfection i just love each & every of your imperfection, i didn't really care how my friends say about you i just love you as what you are not what you have!

2008-01-08T17:47:00.000+08:00

What is Love to Him? What is a truth Love?
08.01.08

This my First post in 2008, have not post for 8 days alr.. Today was a blue day to me, just bother by things in my life after watching the show Cupid's Prank (Cupid no Itazura). What is Love? I think i have not been thinking what love really is to me, If love is not from heart then where is it from & what is for? Is all love short term kind of thing? I'm always afraid to be alone & don't want to be alone, Why there no one would really understand what i really want & i really needed, Just watch by me Concern about me Be there when i'm alone Hugging me Listening to me & most importantly Loving me with a whole heart! I'm imperfection, Isn't someone who truly love you don't mind about your imperfection even you are so imperfect he will love you no matter what even mock by people around you? I thought i found someone who i can hold till old, Maybe i'm still day dreaming sometimes i'm alone i just feel so hurt. Am i asking too much for someone i love? Can someone tell me by tag on my tag board? Thank you.

One more thing i Just miss you Sisters & my Close friends so much, Thank you so much AN, Shirley, Serene, Steffi, Maomao, Clarissa, Kas, Rosaline, Hwee Peng, Nic Wong, Zhi Yan, Faithe & lots more... (if i didn't mention your name i'm sorry)

Loves,
Karen.L

2007-12-31T12:00:00.000+08:00

Together again
作詞: Shin Davor Vulama・Ron Irving・
 Carl Utbult・Shinichiro Aoyama・mink
作曲: Shin Davor Vulama・Ron Irving・
 Carl Utbult
From the single Together again

君を失うだけの
明日はもう　来なくてもいい
君が残した　消えそうなぬくもり
無くさないように　even now

もう一度　愛する人
そばにいて欲しい
君以外は何も
欲しくはない
Cause I can't sleep I can't eat I won't breath
Till when, we're together again, we're together again

想い出はいつも
言葉じゃ足りない　色褪せてゆく
それでも君に　伝え続けたい
胸を引き裂いて　この声を

今すぐに　愛する人
心を重ねて
二人過ごした日々
思い出して
Cause I can't sleep I can't eat I won't breath
Till when, we're together again

誰より　見つめたい
触れていたい　抱きしめていたい
君を

もう一度　愛する人
悲しみの果てに
始まりがあること
あの日のように
Cause I can't sleep I can't eat I won't breath
Till when, we're together again

もう二度と君を
見失いたくない
もう離さない
Cause I can't sleep I can't eat I won't breath
Till when, we're together again, we're together again

2007-12-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

Our 1st Year Anniversary Is Ahead Of Us!
28.12.07

On Christmas Eve, i went over to AN house to make Cupcakes as Christmas present for him... We have lots fun making cupcakes for ours Boy, Mixing icing-sugar & making deco on the cupcakes. After that i rush down to meet him at shaw house as well as dinner there, At "The Ship Restaurant". Then he wanted to go home so we took Cab & he stop at his house Bus-stop, so i went over to my Grandma house. I'm happy that he like those present, I have received a biggest present that's Him this Christmas!

On Christmas Day itself we also went out, i have enjoy the day as it is the first Christmas with someone i love...

Hope one day he just don't care about my imperfection, i might not be pretty, i don't do plastic surgery to make myself pretty it is just so fake to me can...

Loves,
Karen

2007-12-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

I want this guy, Are you willing to be one for me ?
28 December 2007

I want a guy who will text me every single morning and telling me good
morning, and every single night to telling me sweet dreams.
I want a guy who will hold me when
I'm crying and wipe away my tears.
I want a guy who still thinks I'm beautiful
with no make-up on, wearing
jeans and a plain tee-shirt I want a guy who won't
pressure me to do things that I don't want to do.
I want a guy who kisses me on the forehead;
it doesn't always have to be on the mouth.
I want a guy who doesn't kiss and tell.
I want a guy who actually listens to me when you talk.
I want a guy who's waited all day because he is looking
forward to our date that night.
I want a guy who is content to just be
able to hold me and wants nothing more.
I want a guy who can't help but smile
when I walk into the room.
I want a guy who's perfectly content
with staying in and watching movies and cuddling.
I want a guy who won't lie to me about
where he's going or where he's been, or
who he's been with.
I want a guy who gets butterflies when
he hears my name.
I want a guy who's not afraid to tell
his friends he loves you.
I want a guy who doesn't mess with other
girls when he have me; you're the only
one that he need.
I want a guy who doesn't care about my
imperfection, and loves me more for
them; who wants a perfect girl? that's
just boring.
I want a guy who will hold me while we
watch the sunset & sun rise.

i want you to make me the happiest Girl in the world...
Will you said 'I do'?

2007-12-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

You Are The Best!
17 December 2007

Yesterday he played me this Three songs "Forever Love, Canon In D & To Zankard" on Piano for me, Hope we will keep playing on piano for me till the last song of life. I just love to look at the way he play piano, Driving car & everything about him! i'm just so deep in love with him & thinking of him whenever he is not beside of me. Making of Cupcakes will change to next Monday! Yeah it's near to Christmas, i'm still counting down... I love you my dardar sweetheart & you are always in my heart & the only guy in my eyes!

With Lot of Love,
karen Deardear

2007-12-16T22:18:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS IS ROUND THE CORNER!
16 December 2007

To my dearest friends,
Christmas is 9 more days to go... Have you think what to wish for this Christmas? Wish that all you wishes will come true.... Remember to watch 'Alvin & the Chipmunks' to get into Christmas more this Year! don't wait just go for the show is a 5 Stars show! Love ya & misses ya & take cares..

To my Beloved sweetheart Dardar,
Today went to watch 'Alvin & the Chipmunks' those Chipmunks just so cute would like to have them as my son... hahahax. After the movie we went down to wisma, Takashimaya & Lido. I go over his house to get chocolate, he play his piano for me while i sitting at the stairs, i felt so xin fu having someone who play love songs & my fav song to me, Hope he will always play for me till old.. This coming Saturday going to make muffin for Dardar this special Christmas, Also to make this first Christmas with His so special & unforgettable. Dardar i'm loving you more each as each day pass... i love you my Sweetheart i will always & always love you. See you soon!

With alot of love,
Deardear ke yun

2007-12-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

. Past . Now . Future .
14 December 2007

To my Beloved friends who reads my blog, thank you for reading my blog. i misses all of you, meet up soon & take cares.. Call me out when you are free & don't ever forget me friend of yours..

To my beloved Dardar,
We have been together for 7 months 14 days & 10 days more to Christmas. This my first year having you celebrating my birthday, Then next up Christmas, Valentine's Day, Chinese New Year & so on.... The first love song of our is Xing Fu De Ju Li, When will you propose to me? i'm still awaiting... See you on Sunday.. i love you. Lots of Hugs & Kisses.

With lots of love,
Deardear Karen

2007-12-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

OUR FIRST X'MAS TOGETHER!
07.12.07

Today dardar ended army & got back his IC, Den he got more time to accompany me alr... When will he ask me to married him?? The song below sing by Liu Gen Hong - Xing Fu De Ju Li, Was the song that he ask his girlfriend to married him at Expo.. so romantic can... i miss you so much can't wait to see you on Sunday!
i love you. <3

With Love,
Deardear

2007-12-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

DaRdaR HAPPY LUCKY 7 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!
01.12.07

Today i make him Donut... Look really nice but forgotten to take picture of it... haix.. After passing the donut to him, he put his hand on my head "something like silly girl Plus like thank you my girl" hahahax. I Love Him so so much. Muggies Huack!

With lots of Love,
Deardear

2007-11-30T11:56:00.000+08:00

Thank You Dardar Hubby!
30 november 2007

Yesterday was a magical day out with him, he give me a kiss on my head this was the second time. You want to know why was it a magical day, its because just so loving he first time ask me to hold his hand... hahax just make me fly into heaven already, plus laughing all the way home. i think i found my true love & someone who love me, a guy who take out time to go out with him even when he is tired who work till 1am plus yesterday. Tomorrow will be our Lucky 7 Month anniversary, plus tomorrow i going to make Donut for him with my ai xin. <3

With Lots of Love,
karen Deardear

2007-11-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

I MISSES HIM!
28 november 2007

i misses him so much, why i can't be beside of him every seconds.. How can he show me he loves me just like in the past, How i wish he don't look at other girls when he is with me & when he is alone.. i'm soafraid to get heartbreak, this won't happen to isn't it? Where in my faith in him, this few days i just couldn't find it anywhere in my heart. i love you dardar. This love will continue till everlasting with a wonderful ending, i just want to hold on tight onto you.

i wish that you reading my blog & know what i feeling inside my heart, a girl loving you so much which she willing to give in to you to make you happy each day with you...

Our Love since 01.05.07 <3

With lots of Love,
Deardear Karen

2007-11-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

I Have Found My True Love Kiss!
26 November 2006

My true love kiss is not a pig but is you Synn Chan Yong De! You will always be my Dardar no matter what happens & i will always love you the way i loving you now... i miss you too dardar sweetheart, hope tomorrow can see you..

I went out with Maomao mummie, Having lunch together shopping around together miss those school days very much.. Miss those school fun with all my Classmates & Schoolmates, with those joking days laughing out loud.

i'm going to love you forever. There isn't doubt in my mind, because all of the love that i feel in my heart is the" will last forever" kind. i'm going to love you for always, not "maybe",i know that it's true. From the time we first kissed, i knew in my heart my forever love would be you. i love you!

With tons of love,
deardear. <3

2007-11-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

DARDAR I LOVE YOU!
24 November 2007

Yesterday dardar & i went to watch Enchanted, It was a very nice show is also romantic. After the movie he sent me home till my house downstairs, when he reach home we chat on phone awhile just like back to the past when we laughing at each other over the phone.. i will always love him till old...

Today i went town with my family & he also went town to meet his parent for dinner, but we didn't saw each other, we might be far away from each other but our heart just beside each other...

With lots of Love ,
Deardear

2007-11-20T13:13:00.001+08:00

LOVING SOMEONE MUST KEEP HOLDING EVEN HE HAS CHANGE!
20 November 2007

Yesterday when i watching television at Grandma house, A show that about a Love which continue this life to next life & so on.. At the start the main actress say this 'If you truly love a person, hold on tight to it to keep this love going, so you won't regret in the end.' what she say is quite true, Trust was the main thing in every relationship without trust this relationship won't last long & will fade off each day. Today is our 6 months & 20 day, Yesterday night while talking to him just make my day brighten up with laugher, Just like our first few months will it still go on till always when we both old looking at each other & laughing at each other.. i'm controlling my diet to slim down, to become a pretty for you, even i spent 10k on myself to change my looks & figure. See you real soon my Love.

With Tons of Love,
Dear Karen

2007-11-18T00:00:00.000+08:00

How Can i Live my life Without You & Without Your Love?
17.11.07

Today while talking on the phone with you just laughing, just like the first few months of our relationship... This song is specially choose for you, i would like this song with Canon in D to be wedding song, 3years 10 months & 3 days to go... My only love i just love you so much, See you tomorrow plus we watching HERO together... Yeah.

With Tons of Love,
Karen Dear

2007-11-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

Is There Still Love Between us?
16.11.07

Today is dardar birthday, i have slim down to 47kg plus today didn't wear skirt. We have lunch at PS & dinner at Gunther's restaurant was a Modern French Cuisine it was ambrosia food with nice atmosphere. We watch the show Beowulf before we went down to bugis. Dardar i just can't live my life without you, i want to love you as long till old. Today while i sitting inside the cinema, i think if my life without you will just be empty, i won't find other guys anymore even if i not going to be with you that you should know as i told you before. Sorry today didn't really eat much as the past few weeks i have stop eating much food, don't feel like eating much. Hope you really like those present it might not be expensive or anything special, The puzzle is fix in with love every piece specially for you.

With Love,
Deardear

2007-11-15T09:54:00.000+08:00

BEING WITH YOU JUST DIFFERENT!
15 november 2007

Sweetheart Dardar,
I'm seeing you tomorrow, I have a lot of surprise for you tomorrow. Dardar the Ring you give a will keep wearing it till Our special day okies.
See You Tomorrow Real soon! I Love You Hubby Dardar! Have a speedy Recovery okies! i misses you tons lot...

With tons of love,
Baobei deardear.

2007-11-14T15:39:00.000+08:00

I Could Smile Just Like The Sun!
14.11.07

Thank you Dardar so much, My heart back to normal just like the bright Sun... hahahax. I Really Love you my sweet Dardar, We both just like the Sun up there have a big smile on Our face... From today now on our Love have renew, let build it will faith, trust, love, caring. concern & understanding. Today i'm so happy and rest of my life will be like today so happy... Our Ending will always be Happy.... Dardar I love love love love you see you are love by me so muchh..... =P Get well soon, have a very speedy recovering., You are always the one Giving me Happiness.Flying kisses for my sweetheart whhoooo muacks.. See You on your special Day two days to go....

With Lots of Love, <3
Deardear Karen

2007-11-14T10:36:00.000+08:00

Can i Smile Like The Sun Always?
14.11.07

i love you synn.C

Love,
Karen dear

2007-11-13T22:37:00.000+08:00

My MoodLess Day!
13.11.07

Am i your only girl in your eyes? I will keep my trust on you, i know if i don't trust you this relationship won't last long.. I believe that i could be with till always, holding your hand, lay on your shoulder....

With Love,
Karen Dear

2007-11-12T13:01:00.000+08:00

Raining Day!
12 November 2007*

Our day might past fast but this love will always continue, Just three words i love you for a everlasting love. Our Love just like the glass bottle up there was keep with lots of our memories inside even till we are old it will still continue next life. We have been together 6 month 12 days, with you my life is just so different from the past. Being so loved by you & cared by you, You are so important to me with each day past getting to Loving you more & more that never ends... i will always keep loving you the way i'm loving you now, no matter what happens i will stay close with you, i just love you so much that no one can apart us.

Four more days to your 21st Birthday.

with lots Love,
dear Karen

2007-11-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

You always my Love!
10 November 2007

Dardar, Hope next year we can go Japan together... i love you so much & only you.. See you tomorrow that will be real soon...

With love,
Deardear

2007-11-06T12:54:00.000+08:00

HAVING YOU I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY & WITH YOU I'M HAPPY!
06NOVEMBER 2007 <3

Dardar, 10 more days to your 21st Birthday. Sorry to tell you that i won't be able to slim down to 45kg, now i think i'm not a really good girlfriend after all... Dardar maybe on your birthday is our last day, because i cannot slim down to what i promise sorry that i break the promise. i have already try lots of ways to slim down not i didn't try at all. Do you know my friends keep telling me to give up in this relationship & i didn't, The reason is that i know you can give me happiness that no other guys can give me that kind of love & i know you will change for me. You know why i don't have to be worry when i'm with you its because i know you will protect me & i'm happy to be with you because you will bring light to brighten my day when its dark.

This love from me to you, never change even you are far away i will wait here for you no matter what happens. whenever i look at our neos or photos i just missing you like crazy, Can't wait to see you after every time saying bye to you... Sweetheart Dardar i love you so so much. <3

With Love,
Karen Deardear ^-^

2007-11-03T21:49:00.000+08:00

Hope That Our Love Will Always Be The Same.
03 November 2007

Yesterday around night dardar & i watch 'The Game Plan', It was very touching & funny. Today morning he talk over the with me, He so rude to me, I'm a human not your pet. Can don't treat me like this? just wish that our love will last till we are old, maybe you still haven't change your mind to marry a Japanese.

I always wanted my wedding to have this song Canon in D, just hope that guy is you. The wedding i wanted is on the beach as you know, you say this before you will book the whole Sentosa beach, with lots of rainbow streamers decorating the whole place! plus Fireworks which you like, you also say Must be a big bang! Wish that my dream will come true.

Hope our love will always maintain this way, like the loving picture.<3

Loves,
Deardear Karen

2007-10-24T22:21:00.000+08:00

I Love You Honey Dardar!
24.10.07

Dardar & me went out today, Just now he keep making laugh because i wanted to say 2 million i got stuck while saying the two. haha while eating NY.NY we call a meal for two, today he didn't send me home again, miss those days when he send me home. Tomorrow he going Hong Kong already i started missing him, four days without hearing his voice, looking into his eyes, his calls, his sms & lots more. Few more days to our half year anniversary, will be giving him a surprise. Shhh.... Don't tell you what is it yet, on the day itself i will blog up on my bloggie.. Muackies & Huggies, i love you e most and only you alone, i misses you too.. <3

With Lots of Love,
Deardear Karen.

2007-10-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

I FEEL SO LOVED BY YOU!
23.10.07

Beloved Dardar, Even after 5 months 23 days i still feel so loved by you, time pass so fast but our love still as new as past. You know how i know that i feel so loved by you? its because every time i look into your eyes the warm and loving feeling that makes me feel so in love, Plus every time when i tell you that someone push me or knock into me you will protect me, yupp like that day on the train was so crowded you hold me so close to me, i'm so protected by you. On Thursday you going to Hong Kong already, i will miss you but i know that you will enjoy your trip over there. Hope that tomorrow can go out with you, see you real soon. i miss you tons lots, i love you more than anything. muackies huggies. <3

With Love,
Karen

2007-10-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

SORRY I MISTAKEN YOU.
21 October 2007

Today i went out with dardar synn, we walk around PS and Suntec after that we take mrt to newton to wait for dardar parents for dinner at six avenue. Four more days dardar going Hong Kong with Auntie Susan, He going till Sunday i will be missing him for 4 days.

I now know how much he loves me, i love him as much than he loves me. i love him only. muackies & huggies

loves,
karen

2007-10-20T10:19:00.000+08:00

SHOULD I MSG HIM FIRST OR WAITING FOR HIM TO MSG ME???
20 OCTOBER 2007

Since yesterday night till now, he didn't even msg me or give me a call. why must i always be the one call or msg him, plus yesterday is him who call me not to msg or call him while he playing the game. How i know how long he will be in the game? he didn't even leave me a msg at all. Why every time i'm the one who make mistake or do things why every time me? I just don't like the way i'm living now, just keep letting people bullying since young till now. I might look strong outside but real soft inside, why must i always give in to others. Like what maomao say to me " sit down & talk to him " i did but every time after the talk he just take it as a joke, What he promise last time not to hurt me just a empty promise, Guys always break their promise. That why when you know me i don't even believe in relationship anymore and promises make by people. Don't why i just feel so stupid now, the most stupid person in the world that me. Why every time people take avenge on me? How long more can i hold on to this relationship?

sign off,
karen

2007-10-19T21:57:00.002+08:00

AM I RIGHT OR WRONG?
19 October 2007

I'm so knock out, i don't know if i have choose a right choice to got into a relationship. I think if in the future i not with you anymore i will live alone by myself, I don't really believe in relationship anymore i am always the one getting hurt. If you found someone better and pretty or even you want to look for Japanese just go for it, just let me know before hand. I know that i don't look pretty, not slim, slow walking & a mute to you. Is really okay that you found someone pretty, slim, walk fast, & who can answer whatever you say. Can i ask you that why are you expecting so much from me? You tell me which girl don't like to be pretty? don't like to be slim? don't want to walk fast? who want to be a mute to someone? all this is a create of God that no one can change. Who don't want to be a perfect girlfriend to their boyfriend, There no one that is 100% perfect. Can you also tell me that if you are me, Don't you get hurt when your own boyfriend say you are ugly, fat, mute or even a pet to him? How will you feel?

sign off,
Karen

2007-10-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

YOU ARE ALWAYS MY LOVE.
12 October 2007

Dardar, you are my best & you are the most important to me, anything links to you i will caring about it. you know what during this 5 months & 12 days with you, every moment with you just different each day. what happen today that i almost lost one of our neos, i didn't give up to find that neos that i lost i finally found it before i get off the bus. Every time whenever I'm down or sad i will look our neos and photo or even the funny video i taken of you, you just like my Kai Xin Guo.. You know that just now the hug & a kiss on my head just so amazing that hug & kiss means so much to me, for a long time don't have that feeling already. You always my number ONE, who i want to hold on even more than eternity. i love you my beloved dardar, can't wait to see you this Sunday, starting to miss you already. smooch kiss and huggs huggies.

With love,
Deardear Karen. <3

2007-10-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 5th MONTH ANNIVERSARY MY BELOVED DARDAR!!!
1st OCTOBER 2007

Dardar, We been together for 5 months, Thanks for being with me this 5 months taking care of me, looking out for me & loving me. You will always be my sunshine my beloved my hubby my dardar my sweetheart my darling my prince, You are just my everything. What has happen yesterday & today, you have been forgiven i know you don't mean to said those things to me. Being a couple was like a gift every couples is different in their relationship, Nowadays not every young couple can last long if they don't hold on tight, even how handsome or pretty is that guy or girl they don't concern or care for each other. i will like a leech stick on to you tight & never let you go, i love you so so so so so much & the most. muackies and huggies.

With Love,
Karen (Deardear)

2007-09-22T22:59:00.000+08:00

I Love You!
22 September 2007

4 more years to go......

2007-09-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

You are important to me! (Love Sees No Flaw!)
12 september 2007

Dardar, long time have not update my blog. We been together for 4 months & 12 days, it have been a Wonderful Journey together with you this months & days. You know why you are important to me? Because without you i won't be who i am today, grow to be more mature, be more serious in relationship, being so fortunate to having you & who give me happiness. A relationship is just like a pot of plant, need to be water each day & take care of if not it will dry up & die off one day, now a days youngster just treat a relationship as a game. If i have one wish that will come true i would like to wish that to be with you for everlasting till next life next next life & so on.... I want to hold on to your hands so that i won't lost my way, last time i'm lost in a dark place that i'm so afraid & found no way out. You are always my number 1 in my heart, whenever i'm sadd or unhappy you are always beside me, you are that person that make me smile, laugh, being cheerful. Nothing is more important than you in my life...

i love you, my love for you is uncountable & never ending.
sweet muacks & warm huggs

Loves,
Karen (deardear)

2007-08-21T22:22:00.000+08:00

MY LOVE FOR LIFE!
.21 August 2007.

My Dearest Dardar, You are still the best and the most caring guy that i find in my life, thank you for loving me & thank you for every bits of moments you given to me. This song below is specially for you, This song 'Present' is a wonderful song i might not know what he singing but i know is a song that for a wonderful person in life, You are a guy who cares, loves and concern about me. 11 Days to ours Fourth Months Together, i have drew and something special for you, Every month i will draw for you to show my love for you & something that can be use. Still counting down 4 years 1 month & 1 day to a really special day in life, waiting for that day to come.Thank You & Sorry for those things that done for this 4 months & 21 days, making you so tired to make me happy and sometimes cheering me up when i'm down, sometimes making you angry for my attitude & temper, making you worry about me when i'm sick or didn't take good care of myself. My job now is to be a good girlfriend & taking good care of you till old, wish to be your future wife & your future kids mum. (= i love you my loved Dardar & only you, Hope that i can see you tomorrow, missing you very much, lots of kisses & lots of hugges.

You my Super Hero that i love! (=

With loves,
KAREN (deardear)

2007-08-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

I MISS EVERY LITTLE THINGS & MY ONLY LOVE I MISS HIM THE MOST!
20 August 2007

Dardar, Just one day didn't see you like few millions years never see you already. Just wish that we can see each other each and every day, Not only weekends only. Sometimes i'm thinking if i'm your Full-time or Part-time Girlfriend or even only weekends Girlfriend, Wish that we have more time spending together. Can i ask you here in my blog, Will you willing to married me in Four years time? or you just waiting to go Japan to married with a japanese? Sometimes i'm think is guys all the same, Hurting a girl in the end, saying nice things and make the girl so in love with them and abandon them in the end. Now a days Young couples get married and have kids and divorce, I don't want a life like this, sometimes i'm thinking if i didn't married those things won't happen to me but is just fate if this and that will happen. I want to be with you as long as posssible, i don't mind changing for you because loving a people will willing to change for the person that the person love, i'm so deep in love with you because you are that guy who change my life and renew it. i just want a serious & stable relationship, not like those relationship in the past, Just wish that you are my last Boyfriend and my Husband in Four years time.. i love you SYNN CHAN YONG DE, i willing to spend rest of my life with you and take care of you when you are not well, be with you no matter you are poor or rich, i just want to hold on to your hands tight till always, i really love you with all my hearts & with my whole life loving you. muackie & huggie.

Your loves,
KAREN <3

2007-08-19T23:08:00.000+08:00

SWEETHEART SORRY FOR NOT BEING A WONDERFUL GIRL.
19 August 2007

Dardar, sorry again to make you angry, can you don't compare me with others girls, sometimes you just say things to over and that not a joke at all. I know that i'm not pretty, not good looking, have no nice figure, i don't blame you because i feel that i'm not perfect at all myself. Today dardar & me watch the movie BRAVE STORY, the show is nice and the ending song is also nice, the ending song is at the bottom of the page. Today Lunch & Dinner we ate Japanese Food, Lunch i ate fried-rice and Dinner i ate Tofu-Curry rice. I enjoy walking with my dardar from one place to one place holding his hand, wish that i can hold his hand & walk with him till old. I love you, only you alone that i love till everlasting. Muackie & Huggie

Your Loved,
KAREN. (deardear)

2007-08-15T22:16:00.000+08:00

SORRY THAT I MISTAKEN YOU, MY LOVE. <3
15 AUGUST 2007 - Wednesday

Dardar, Sorry that i mistaken you that i thought you regreting to have me as your girlfriend. But i'm wrong about it & i should have trust you, sorry all this time i'm showing you attitude, i promise that i will change for you plus you must give me a bit more time to change. I will also slim down for you, give you a special gift on your birthday. i love you Sweetheart, only you & you alone. i will hold on to our relationship tight.. muackie & huggie

With Loves
KAREN

2007-08-11T00:49:00.000+08:00

MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH.
11.08.07

Dardar, What happen on Thursday & Friday, just not what i wanted to happen. Maybe you might regret knowing me and having a relationship with me, i might not be as pretty or slim than other pretty nice figure girls, Like what my mummy say to me everytime when i ask her if i'm ugly she will just say "There is No ugly Lady But There lazy Lady that make them ugly", i believe that every single person is unique in their ways they are both in this earth. You think i don't wish to look very pretty and have nice figure, being Nature is better than you do plastic surgery & what if you don't like the way you look after the surgery you also will regret for doing plastic surgery. I don't even want to be like japanese having fake stuff on their body, If you are Naturally pretty than putting or adding fake stuff isn't it better. Sometimes i can just give in to you & let you say me, but can you at least care for my feelings, i'm also a girl who still want pride & got feelings, Sometimes i can just take it & let go but is everytime when we meet up do you know is hurting after sometime. Sometimes i just don't know how to tell you, typing all this into my blogg to let you know my feelings that i wanted to tell you, Not i don't to talk to you face to face just that you can change the subject when i want to tell you. Plus i'm your Girlfriend not a Army person why must you use that kind of tone to me, must answer your question in 5 second & smiling to you whenever i looking at you. I just don't know why this happen, loving you alone is never enough. i miss those smiling times together, Not i don't want to trust you just that what you say to me just keep add on...
I truly love you no matter how you looks, size & even you are poor or rich, i will still love you no matter what happen. i love you, muackie & huggie

Loves,
KAREN <3

2007-07-30T14:59:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. (=
30.JULY.2007

Dardar, Thank you for my birthday this year and i want to celebrate my birthday with you every year, This year is my first year celebrating with my boyfriend and you are my first boyfriend that celebrate my birthday for me. Every year i wish that one year i will have someone i love and who is my Mr.right to celebrate my birthday for me, finally my wish come true and that person is you, After so long i met you for after 16 years looking for my true real love and you are my most special gift this year on my birthday. I have the most awesome birthday this year that i wanted for a long time, you might not be my first love or my first boyfriend but at least you are the first guy who celebrate my birthday and that the wish that i wanted for a very long time.

Last time i thought that fall in love with someone you love is a wonderful thing, But past 5 years i was heart broke and hurt in every relationship i been through, But after i know you & having a relationship with you, i feel that i'm in my first love once again & a guy who i didn't know at first who appeal in my msn, who is my boyfriend now & a guy who call me don't give up in relationship & supporting me, A guy who make me hear my laughter again, throw away my past, bring me happiness, caring for me, be there whenever i needed you and a guy who give me his love that i needed. Two more days to our 3rd month Together, still counting down to 4 years 1 month 22 days more to our special day.

This year birthday, even i'm out of school my secondary friends still celebrate my birthday for me. AN (best sista,suntann buddie,outting freak buddie), Steffi (best sista,best buddie, close friend see her every weekend), Clarissa (meimei & tanning buddie), Miao hua (mummy), Serene (Sista, buddie & shopping buddie), Rosaline (buddie), Zhi Yan (noise Piglet,buddie & bag wanted), Karylan (Mummie,Buddie), Hwee Peng (buddie).

My Present:
_Ring, Bracelet, lunch at ma-maison, Dinner at lawry's & lots more (Dardar)
_newurbanmale thing (AN)
_Cup and name taggie (Karylan)
_T-shirts (Clarissa)
_Pants (Serene)
_Box (Hwee Peng)

*LOVE KAREN

2007-07-26T15:47:00.000+08:00

TWO AND SIX DAYS TO TWO SPECIAL DAY. (=
26.07.07

Dardar, Going to see you Tomorrow can't wait till tomorrow, which i have lots of suprise from you & my friends. Two days to my 17 Birthday and Six days to our 3rd month anniversary, So fast i 17 years old (old leh) plus so fast we been together for 2 months & 26 days. Times pass so fast but look back we have wonderful memories together and more to come, We have together built this relationship together. See you Tomorrow.. i miss you & i love you the most i want to love you for my whole life fill with you in my life and your unfalling love. Muackies & Huggies..

Loves,
Karen (your loved Dear)

2007-07-24T22:13:00.000+08:00

MY LOVE FOR YOU,
I WANT TO BE WHEREVER YOU ARE
TO KEEP CLOSE TO YOU.
24.07.07

My tian tian xin Dardar, i want to melt your heart with my love for you since i have already melted you. (= I love you with all my heart & my birthday wish this year is about you and me, Our future. Wish that every moment we been together that our love will be built stronger each time and trust each other, Wish that our love is eternal love that never ends and a endless happiness with you. SPECIAL DAYS 4 days to my birthday and 8 days to our 3rd month anniversary. Thank you for giving me a chance to feel first love again, If not you and your encouragement to get into this relationship with you. xiao tian xin xie xie ni de ai (= Muacks muackies. Can't wait to see you on friday & we watching The Simpsons Moive, Yeah can't wait till friday.

I LOVE YOU. <3

Loves,
KAREN (loved dear)

2007-07-24T10:03:00.000+08:00

.MY WORDS TO YOU.

MY SWEETHEART SYNN CHAN YONG DE I LOVE YOU

FOR REST OF MY LIFE,

ONLY YOU I GIVE MY LOVE TO TILL NEXT LIFE AND MORE.

2007-07-23T20:45:00.000+08:00

9 & 5 DAYS TO GO...
23.07.07

my tian tian xin Dardar, Nine days to our 3rd month of this relationship & Five days to my 17 first birthday with you. I know you are tired and busy about your work stuff that i don't really want to disturb you so much, just hope that you could spent time just sending me a msg or just a call. I miss you real much. We been together for 2 months 23 days already, this afternoon while i sit in the living room thinking why is our every month anniversary on the 1st day of the month, the reason is that on 1st is a easy date to remember and cannot be forgotten of this date, i'm so xin fu to have your love. i might not be as good as Japanese ladies, there nothing that i can compare with them they might be more pretty than me so pretty don't means that what is inside of them are good, some place of me and Japenese is so different. Sometimes i don't like the way you say you going to find 'RBMM' in Novmber, just make me feel so jealous and angry about it. Just wish that on my birthday you won't make me angry or say "RBMM" in front of me.

I LOVE YOU TRULY WITH MY WHOLE HEART. <3

Loves,
Karen {{bao bei wifey}}

2007-07-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

HUBBY I LOVE YOU!!!
18.07.07

Dardar, you are the best to me, sometimes you give me tones that i don't really like but i know you don't really want to use those tone just that you are tired, you are not blame at all plus you are forgiven, i know you are my 1% real guy and those 99% of idiot is my past. There nothing i can take to compare to you, you are important part of my life that without you my life will be in darkness but morning you are here my life is like a colourful rainbow at night you are my twinkle shining star, you who shine & bring me happiness. i love you because of your kindness, loving, caring & concerning about me, if without you i won't have all this things from you...

Ten more days to my 17 birthday, I can't till i'm 21 to our special day. I think this year and rest of my birthday with you will be so special, I know one of the present is a ring but i won't wear on my hand but my neck till i'm 21... i wanted to ask you but i not sure if you will allow, maybe i will ask you on my birthday or if you are reading my blogg let me know the answer okayy, i want to keep it as our special love treasure till i'm 21...

This song 'tomorrow never knows' make me look forward to 4 years time, as time changing that our love will still hold on still like now....

Loves,
Mrs Karen.C
Muacks & Huggs

2007-07-13T13:24:00.000+08:00

WHY IS OUR RELATIONSHIP COLD AND HOT AT ALL TIMES???
13July2007

I just don't get it why relationship can just fade easily, I don't have any ideal that can stop this relationship being cold and hot. Don't you think that after you came back you have change, We talk on phone for not even 1 hour or even half an hour, Massage you sometimes don't even reply me even is a yesterday massage i didn't even have a reply. You might say you are tired, but Next day morning you can reply me but you didn't even leave a word. You say i didn't give you freedom, if i didn't give you freedom i won't even let you play game & go out with your friends. Did you even think of me, finding time to accompany you and wanted to spend time with you. Last time you promise me so many things but you forget it so fast, that why people say that promises can be broken so easy, at first i didn't really believe but thinking that people will keep their promise as they have promises. I try hard each day send you massage and give you a call that you won't feel that i don't care about you, even is i didn't recieved back any massages or calls. Is your choice to make the question to an answer. You might not want to read my blog but i'm here just to say what i want to say and not make myself feel feel unhappy or anything...

Love,
Karen.L

2007-07-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU HUBBY DARDAR!!!
10.07.07

Dardar, still remember what coming up in 18 days??
World most IMPORTANT 3 Word to tell you I LOVE YOU.

Loves,
Karen(Bao bei)

2007-07-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

Missing you badly.
09.07.07

Dardar & i went watch hard die 4.0 Yesterday, That show is nice.. Dardar i still miss you even though you are back in Singapore, But i don't really see you that often and you now a days busy doing your stuff, i just misses last time that we go out and talk on phone. i know things have to change and not stay in the past, but i really wish that you could even take out time to spent with me... i just hope that when i'm tired you will be there for me and slow down your steps for me, sometimes i just can't catch up with you... i just wish one day we can just sit down and have a talk face to face, if not i'm the one who is holding on our relationship alone... i know not really your fault & i not really blaming you for anything. Everytime when i'm sad or bad mood you are the person who cheer me up and brighten up my day, i'm really very thankful for you being my beloved one... Our relationship might be up and down all times, but i wish that you will be with me to hold on to this relationship...

Sorry if i say anything wrong.

Dardar thank you for everything you brought back from japan, i really love it... i will slim down to wear the clothes to look pretty figure in it & i love that towel that have my fav cat on it... hubby muacks and hugs, most importantly that is i love you....

Loves,
Karen.C

2007-07-07T00:29:00.000+08:00

OUR STORY. ABOUT HOW WE GET TOGETHER...
07.07.07

Dardar, while i sitting at my living i think back of how we get together, If without you i have totally give up in relationship, Because that time i'm really broken into pieces in my life. You who bring a new life in our relationship, You who care & love me, You who let me lead me with hope & cheer me up... I think that you are Daddy God who plan you to be cheering me that time when i want to give up & letting us being together after so long, That you have been in my msn for many years, That we just say 'Hi' in the past and become a couple now, This what really amazed me now when i think back...

I will tell this story of ours till the next generation and pass on, I have never believe that God have really change our life so much till i see it myself, He didn't short-change me and being so greatful to us... He who plan us being together that i never regret being with you and having you by my side... Dardar i wish that i can see you each day when i first open my eyes till i'm old, We might be having our Honeymoon feeling now, but we will hold on tight right? Sometimes my mummy say that why i don't continue studying for higher cert, but choose Fashion Designing as my future, sometimes i'm thinking if you going university & have higher cert than me, Will you look down on me??? I'm just scared that you might feel that some others girls have the same degree as you match you more than me... can you tell me the truth???

Sometimes i just don't know if i should or shouldn't ask you all these, But my heart just so heavy if i don't say out. Like everytime you send me home i wanted to say 'i love you' before the lift door close but after the door close i just say i didn't really know that if you hear it... Like on last friday while you send me home i just hug you so tight that i don't even want to let go of you & if i don't let you go you will never go wherever you want to go, but i know if i let go you i will be missing you...

My wish is to open my eyes every morning with you by my side and the first person i see each morning. This year my birthday biggest Present is YOU that i have never had a boyfriend by my side for my birthday... Every year on my birthday i always wish that to have a boyfriend to celebrate my birthday with me and each and every year of my birthday...

Dardar i really deeply in love with you and i will love you for ever lasting & with my true heart.. i missing you...
see you really soon (O-^)O
Can't wait to see you!!!

Loves,
KAREN {{Deardear}}

2007-07-06T09:37:00.000+08:00

MISSING & WAITING FOR YOU!!!

06.07.07

Dardar Good morning, One more day to see you... i'm thinking if you slim down or add on weight hahaha... i didn't go steamboat with clarissa they all because my tummy not really feeling good today plus mummy call me don't go also, Then staying at home with mummy, Posting blogg, Listening to songs, Thinking and Missing you... I might not be as nice as Japanese but i just want to be myself for you, I will also try my best to do what i should be doing to be myself...

Today i post 3 songs for you (missing you)(waiting-BOA)(Winter Love-BOA), This three songs just like the missing you just never end & waiting for you to be back... i'm thinking if tomorrow you saw me at the airport fetching you, The first thing what will you say or do to me??? For Seven days didn't see you now i don't really know how you looks like but i know you will look the same as all the Neoprints and Photo, But the most importantly my love for you have never decrease but it have increase each day, My trust in you also increase each day too... i swear i didn't look at guys while you are away, I look at your Neos each day while you are away... just can't wait till see you that what i'm thinking as each day pass and the days of seeing you getting less and closer...

JUST ONE MORE DAY TO SEE YOU!!!
i love you (This 3 words might be simple but This 3 words just so unique)
i miss you
see you @ airport tomorrow... O(^-O)
muackies & huggies

Loves,
KAREN.C {Your Loved Deardear}

2007-07-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

DARDAR I MISS YOU!!!
05.07.07

Dardar, Two more days to see you, Just can't wait till Saturday to come... Today i went bugis with Angela & Shirley then eat Soul Garden with Zhi Yan, Miao Hua, Steffi & Angela, After that we meet Clarissa and we went to Zhi Yan house... Tomorrow going eat steamboat @ marina bay again, i think i will grow fat again.. hahaha..

Hubby i just missing you so much as each day pass it just add on deeper and deeper, the misses just uncountable... Have been Six days of life without your image, your smiles, your laughter, your love, your hugs, you kisses and your caring for me, that i suddenly felt so left out without you in my life... I misses every part of you in my life, You who brings me joy and ever ending happiness that no one have ever given me before, That even money cannot pay the price of love, caring and happiness that you give to me... We have been together for Two months & Five days, i always lift this relationship up to the Heavenly Daddy... i'm so greatful for what i have & what i have been bless with... The wonderful relationship with you just so amazing...

Chan Yong De Synn I Love You With my True Heart that never fails... I will Treasure every moments spend with you that cannot be erased in my mind & heart.. i miss you too. take care.. enjoy.. i love you

Loves,
Karen.C {{Deardear}}
o(^-O) see you in Two days.. <<3

2007-07-04T22:49:00.000+08:00

I MIGHT BE BUSY, BUT I STILL TAKE OUT TIME TO BE THINKING AND MISSING OF YOU!
04.07.07

Dardar, you are always the first person that every morning thinking and missing you, and every morning waiting for you to call or msg me... i trying to keep myself busy this few days, if not i will be crazy thinking and missing you... Three more days to go, and i will be going to the airport to give you a big surprise to see me... Today should have Bible Study in church, but livia fall sick so Steffi, Aarron, PeiTing & me went Tamp mall for dinner together... Hubby i don't think i can slim down, How??? i tried hard to keep my diet just forgotten sometimes by eating a bit too much..

Three more days just so long, each day pass without seeing you just like 10 years didn't see you... missing you so much more each day pass Five days have not been seeing you. suddenly felt so lonely being alone when i'm alone...

Dardar i love you & i miss you... muackies and huggies.. take care and enjoy..

Loves,
Karen.C {{Deardear}}

2007-07-03T23:14:00.001+08:00

COUNTDOWN TO SEE YOU...
03.07.07

Dardar, Today i went sun-tanning with Angela & Shirley at Sentosa, I think i'm a bit sun burn now hahaha... Then after sun-bathing we went to Vivo City to shop around, Guess what i brought Four Sour Candy for you. Afetr that we eat Pepper Lunch for Lunch/Dinner, We walk to Heeren, Paragon and Far East, At Paragon we shop at Gucci and Burberry, i went Gucci to find that shoes i like and Burberry to check if still got that top i wanted to buy for you... But Gucci left the Pink one only but i wanted is with that gucci prints on it and burberry don't have the black left plus sunday is the last day for those older stocks, because new stocks will be in for the next two weeks...

Today i missing you more and more, Should i go fetch you on Saturday??? Can't wait to see you... i think i should go so i will miss you for 4 more days than 5 more days....

Hubby i miss you tons tons Ones Tens Hundreds Thousands Millions Billions Zillions Lots... Got miss me??? Enjoy and take care yourself okiee... muackies and huggies

Loves,
Karen.C {beloved DearDear Baobei}
o(^-O) see you soon!!

2007-07-02T11:57:00.000+08:00

MISSING YOU STILL!
02.07.07

Dardar, How's your trip over at Japan? Must be very fun right? Six more days to see you again, yesterday night i make something special for you and when you are back i will give it to you as a return give that draw & cut out from my hands for you. i will be here while time flies pass each day with my blog of msg to you and very bits of my days missing you here in singapore. Hubby i missing every moment, whenever i misses you i will look at our Neos & my eyes started to sore next day, i think when you are back my eyes have already gone.. haha. everyday while my phone ring i just wish that was you calling or msging me.. every night i read those past night msg to make me sleep in my dreamland to see you. whenever i felt lonely i will keep myself busy to do whatever that takes away my lonelyness....

Today is our two months and two days together, i'm really lucky to have you loving & caring for me. every bits of your love means alot to me, everytime is you who give in to me but you say i'm so concern person, everytime you are the person to give in to me more than i give in more.. Dardar i cannot really promise that i can be 100% perfect but i will do my best to be a 99.9% girlfriend to you...

Dardar, i will love you as much as your love for me... i will also miss you as much as every misses that you miss me.. Just enjoy yourself that will take away my worries upon you.. i miss you and i will love you till never ending & only with whole heartedly...

Loves,
Karen.C (your beloved deardear)
(^-O) see you soon

(Your love that fills my world!)

2007-07-01T14:05:00.000+08:00

2nd PART.
01.07.07

Dardar, while i reading in my friendster comments i remember you type this in my comments " u're a carousel, u're a wishing well,and u light me up when u ring my bell...u're a mystery, u're from outerspace,u're every minute of my every day...and i cant believe that im your man,and i get to kiss ya baby just bcause i can...whatever comes our way, we'll see it through,cause u know that's wat our love can do...your every song, and i sing along, cause u're my everything!!! " this really remind our wonderful times spent together for this two months, i will treasure those times plus we have come so far in this fairytales of us.... i have not seen you for two days have not hear your voice for one day, just missing you so much, seven more days to meet you again. You must be shopping around Japan now with big and small bags right? haha.

MR SYNN CHAN YONG DE I MISSES YOU, I LOVE YOU WITH MY WHOLE LIFE THAT I WON'T EVEN REGRET.

Loves,
KAREN.C (your loved Dear)

2007-07-01T00:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2nd MONTHs ANNIVERSARY
01.07.07

Dardar, you must have reach Japan already, i misses you so much, wish that you were here with me now to celebrate our second month.. Time have pass so fast it have been two months we being together, and our special day is coming to our way. Do you really willing to stay beside me for rest of your life, i'm really confuse about everything now, like what my sis say no one can predict our future just wish that our love is just like a fairytales never end and everlasting between us.. i just miss you hundred thousand ten thousand hundred thousand million billion zillion lots. Next time i don't even want to be separated with you...

i just hope that you don't mind about my biggest secret that only my secondary school friends know about it, that i feel that about it you will leave me. That why i don't tell you...

i love you only and till everlasting.. <3

Loves,
Karen.C (your loved wifey)

2007-06-30T11:50:00.000+08:00

I will be missing for a week, But i know that our love will never fade but it will go to the next level in this relationship.<3
30.06.07

Dardar, Today you going to Japan for a week, i might be a bit down because i will be missing you for this one whole week every moment even when i'm sleeping i will still dream you in my dream every night... But i know you will enjoy yourself i have no worries after all.. i have never regret for you being my love, i'm really thankful for you, the happiness and laughter you put in my life is more than i never have wanted i will hold on to this relationship tight till always, even my next life next next life even billions life after i still want to meet you again and being together... i will be update my blog each day this whole week waiting to see you again, holding your hand, feel your warm in your arms, your lips that melt my heart, your face that bring me happiness, your voice that bring me laughter and your smile that brighten up my whole life. i will be here awaiting for you, not i don't want to go to the airport just scared i cannot control myself and scared you worry about me when you see i'm crying while you going in... (i not a cry baby okie just that hard to let go of you for a week) MR. Chan i will be miss you million billion and uncountable lots... I love you the way you are that complete my life with that missing piece.. I love you with all i'm that i have never love anyone..

TAKE CARE, ENJOY YOURSELF, MISS & LOVE YOU THE MOST, MUACKIES AND HUGGIES. <3

Loves,
KAREN.C (your beloved wifey)

2007-06-29T23:57:00.000+08:00

MISSING YOU EVEN YOU ARE BESIDE ME.
29.06.07

Today is our 1 month and 29 days, i felt that our time spend together getting lesser and lesser. i just missing you every moment even you are just beside me i just can't stop missing you, plus tomorrow you going japan i will miss you even more and one week just like a challenge for both of us, we will proved that our love will stay strong and even stronger after one week, i will stay strong even if i send you off by looking at the airplane i will control my tears from falling, but i know you will enjoy yourself for one week.... i will also start my diet plan just for you, i also want to be that kind of pretty meimei you like in your eyes when you are back, will you allow me to go airport to fetch you when you are back?? i will be here awaiting for you, i miss you that i never miss someone so much before, dardar you are my everything that nothing is more important than you in my eyes you always the most handsome and the best i never had before..

I MISS YOU CHAN YONG DE SYNN.

Loves,
KAREN (your loved wifey)

Two songs for you...

2007-06-05T16:05:00.000+08:00

My Heart Will Go On

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on.

Far across the distance
and spaces between us
You have come to show you go on.

Near, far, wherever you are,
I believe that the heart does go on.
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart,
And my heart will go on and on.

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime,
And never let go till we're gone.

Love was when I loved you,
one true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on.

Near, far, wherever you are,
I believe that the heart does go on.
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart,
And my heart will go on and on.

You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on.
We'll stay forever this way,
You are safe in my heart,
And my heart will go on and on.

2007-06-05T15:23:00.000+08:00

A Day With Love!
05JUNE2007. Tuesday.
3:23pm

My Dear MR.Chan, today is our one month and five days. Yesterday we went out again plus yesterday is the 5th day since last thursday... Plus tomorrow i can see my MR.Chan again.. Mmm yesterday we shop at far east plaza then we walk to heeren for dinner, Plus yesterday is his first time meeting my mummy.

MR.Chan i'm thinking if i don't see you for Five days i will be missing you like crazy... Just wish i can pack you inside my bag wherever i go, So that i can keep you close and keep you by myside...

I Choose this song (my heart will go on), because is a song that cannot be forgotten and always be remember for the love story. Like how love will always go on and cannot be forgotten.. i just so truly deep in love with you and every bits of love just so amazing between us and it will just go on and on till very long and everlasting.... i will love you as much as how your love for me, i will care you as much as how your care for me, i will beside you as much as how the time spend on me, every bits of you just so amazing to me every bits of you just make me smile and being cheerful, every bits of you just wash my past away and you just so much important to me than what money cannot buy..... i love you with every bits of my heart with every bits of love just increase our love into another level... every kisses just so amaze to me and so deeply kept in my heart.... every hugs just keep me closer to you.... YOU ARE THE MOST AMAZING PERSON WHO IS IN MY LIFE AND CHANGE MY LIFE WITH YOUR LOVE.....

Loves,
MRS.KAREN C
(= iloveyou Synn.chan.yong.de

2007-06-04T13:57:00.000+08:00

Wonders Days Beside You!
4JUNE2007. MONDAY.
1:57pm

My sweetheart MR.Chan, we been together for 1 month and 4 days. I enjoy each and every bits with you, our love just built stronger each day and my love for you just go deeper.

We went out for 4 days on Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday, On Thursday we went to Cineleisure to play Pool, guess who win? Of course is my MR.Chan, haha Plus he still teach me how to play, After Pool we went Takashimaya and to Suntec for dinner.. On Friday we when to PS to catch Shrek3 plus Friday is our One month anniversary before that he came over to my house for Macs breakfast, After the moive we walk to Heeren to have a neoprint Shot (ilovetheNeos).. On Saturday we went to Bugis, guess what we eat duck-rice haha, then he caught me two pooh bear toys and some sweet and pooh and tigger scotch-tape, After Bugis we went Expo for a city havest chucrh conference then we went Airport for dinner.. On Sunday we went Suntec for lunch and to the Cental for dinner and shop shop at there... i really enjoy each single day with you.. thank you for even giving me this chance.. i love you Synn Chan Yong De..

Loves,
MRS.C

i'm loving you.

2007-05-30T13:51:00.000+08:00

OUR 30th DAY TOGETHER.
.300507.Wednesday.
1:51pm

My Dearest Mr Chan, i missing you every second without you just wish that we see each other everyday and by your side. Two more days to our first month anniversary plus very excited tomorrow can see you friday can see you and saturday also can see you... Yeah tomorrow going to play pool with my dardar my MR.synn haha.. Friday we maybe going to watch 'SHREK 3' haha.... Then saturday still thinking.... Mmm one month just pass so fast plus i kept lots of memories about me and you, you are the one who brought smile and laughter back to me, i'm really thankful for what you have did and done for me. i will be waiting for our important day to arrive, i will stay with real close to you because i don't want to loose and no one can replaced the love that you given to me. Life with you by myside just seem so different than what i have been through, with you i have change my lifestyle and the way how i live my life... Can see my mummy like you alot when she have not even see you before, she keep asking me about you and your stuff.. i think she just want to marry me out faster... hahaha. i just keep missing you do you know.. i think tomorrow first thing i do is to jump up to hug you real tight, i just miss you so much this 3 days and i think next month for 2 week from 11-15 june and 30-?? june/july i will miss you so much.. i'm thinking if you go japan if i send you to the airport and see you go in i will sure cry, so maybe not going to send you to the airport, so won't make you so worry about me and seeing me crying.. hahaha. But i going to airport when you are back to fetch you... Dardar tell you ar, i'm sometimes look strong outside but inside just like jelly and water-tap, plus last time i'm just like a crybaby when i'm bully or make mistake while in girl guides, but i learn alot whenever i cry i learn from my mistake and not to let people bully me and protect myself. But just one day someone told me this 'you cry you might not solve a problem, you might done wrong but you learn from it.' That when i learn to be independent and solve things bit by bits and slowly i become the person i wanted to be in my life, but most importantly you are the one who really pull me up again... i really thank you for letting me know how true love feels like again.. i promise i won't leave you and i won't even want to leave you.. i love you the most and only you i love with whole heart and only you who deserve my love.. muackies and huggies. Can't wait to see you tomorrow

Loves,
KAREN. (your wifey.)

2007-05-28T09:38:00.000+08:00

Our 28 days and 2 months to a special day!!!
.280507. Monday .
9:38am.

Here to post a new level of my love with my beloved synn.c, we have been together for 28 days and on friday is our first month anniversary. yesterday he date me out, haha, we went town and have lunch at lawry's restaurant which is in PARAGON.. after lunch we both went to the washroom then i take a long time to come out (as you know girls like to be pretty), he thought i gone missing, he ask one of the staff did he see that girl with him just now (that's me!), den the staff didn't he must be worry (about me!), Then i walk out from the washroom and that staff said he is a caring guy. yupp true he a very caring guy and a guy who take me away from the darkness, days with him really different i been to lot of new place that i never been to and he have given me all the happiness that i never had before.Mmm after lunch with went shop shop around den walk back to PS to catch Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End.. that show was really nice and is like 3hrs. oh ya he also caught me a soft-toy at PS, very loving of him right, but too bad he belong to me a me alone only.. haha. i love him the most and i only love him and i love him for everlasting. i miss him tons now and i will miss him for 3 days.. and two months to my BIRTHDAY just can't wait till that day...

Love,
KAREN.L